Having the Ability to Sleep in is Spoiling Me

It's 6:30 in the morning and I have been out of bed for a half hour...I have been awake nearly all night. Lately, I've been experiencing mild anxiety while in bed which has had a negative effect on my attempts to sleep. What is the cause? My future.

I cannot seem to prevent myself from thinking about my "real" life every night after resting my head on the pillow. In case you are unaware, I finished my first year of grad school a month ago. I came back to the Midwest the day of my last final to stay with my parents for awhile and ultimately moved in with Loverboy for the remainder of the summer. I have been here for almost 3 weeks now.

Naturally, him and I have shared a few rough moments since I arrived, but those moments rest in the shadows of the wonderful time we have spent together. He truly does make me happy. I love the ability he has to make me smile. I love that he can convince me to forget my worries...of course I mean temporarily forget...and unfortunately he has a hard time convincing me while he is sleeping. WAKE UP LOVERBOY!

In other news, I was lucky enough to find a summer job the day after I arrived here. It is (knock on wood) the perfect summer job for me. I am working at a tutoring facility that specializes in K-12 help in reading, writing, and mathematics. It pays enough so that working 18 hours a week is enough for me to get by for the rest of the summer. Even better, during the summer it's only open Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday (thus only 18 hours) so I get a 4-day weekend. I am loving it so far.

It's unlike the private tutoring that I am used to. The facility has a curriculum of its own that I follow. Plus, I have never tutored multiple students at one time nor have I worked with kids this young. For some reason I have always thought that I would not like working with kids. I thought that I would only be able to handle post high school students. Now, I am not so sure.

Now to the reason I got out of bed so early this morning. As I stared at the ceiling this morning, trying to block out the sounds of the birds chirping (oh how I loath bird chirps in the morning) I thought about how much I am enjoying working with these kids. It dawned on me that this is the first job I have had that I look forward to doing. Yes, I realize I haven't been there for long, but so what. So, while I laid in bed, I thought about the steps I would need to take to make teaching these kids a permanent job (i.e. to become a teacher).

It turns out I have my cards in line (I think that is the expression I'm looking for). I'm not going to do anything drastic though. I am returning to Georgia in August to continue school. Meanwhile, I will continue to keep my mind open to the idea of teaching in the K-12 venue.

Alright everyone, it's 7 a.m. and time for me to take a nap.